Receiving

I’ve never been very good at asking for help.  I think most women are not – we’re used to being the proactive, fix things, get it done kind of people in our family.  This adoption process has been interesting thus far.  I knew at the outset that it’s a job too big for us alone.  And before we even began, I knew God would use this process to stretch my faith and my reliance on others.  He has already.

We’ve accepted yard sale donations from so many – thank you!  My garage is FULL!  We’ve also received five donations now, and to top it all off, we got some great news yesterday.  Some amazing friends of ours are going to MATCH ALL DONATIONS BETWEEN NOW AND END OF THE YEAR – up to $5000!  That’s super exciting, extremely generous, and such a God thing.  From my perspective they have no business doing such a thing as I tried to point out, but it comes down to this is something God has laid on their hearts, and they want to do it.  Who am I to argue with that?  But, it’s hard to accept – all of it!

All of those things we’ve received are hard for me to digest.  The checks we’ve gotten I just sit in wonder with tears in my eyes.  I look at our garage full of items for the yard sale with tears (mostly from being overwhelmed by people’s generosity, but also maybe because of how much I need to do in two days – ha!).  I know I can’t repay any of that.  None of it.  Jason and I’s hope is that when we come through this process that we will be able to use at least part of our adoption expenses tax refund to help someone else get started on the process – maybe we can match someone’s donations someday!  But, we can’t measure up to all that we’ve received, and we’re just at the beginning stages.

It helps a little that it’s not going to us persay, but it’s going towards the sweet girl we’ll have and they will get to watch grow up as well.  And I also know it’s due to people whose hearts are bent towards adoption and the causes of children in less fortunate situations – to say the least.  But, it still blows my mind.  It’s just a God thing.  So He blows my mind.  And we can only sit back, recieve, and watch in amazement and gratefulness – to all of you supporting us and to our Savior!